It Hasn’t All Been Roses

An apartment fire.   Living in hotels for over a month.   Panic attacks.   Health issues.   Learning each other’s quirks.   Learning the balance of spending time together and time alone, as introverts.   An unexpected pregnancy.   The death of the ministry I led.   A job change.   2 different moves….

For the Unseen Mamas

The night before Mother’s Day I sat in my bed with my phone, scrolling through pictures of my children and re-watching recent videos of them.  I felt the smile spread across my face as I looked upon their sweetness and their joy.  I felt enveloped in the gift of motherhood and completely blown away that…

Storage Full

The other day I pulled out my phone to take a picture of my kids but my to my dismay, I could not take a picture. My phone storage was full. At capacity. No room for any more pictures. I can relate to my phone. Lately I feel like I am always at full storage….

The Only Lullaby

I was recently watching the movie Philomena, when I felt it. The sadness boiling up again, threatening to spill over and burn every part of me. In the movie (spoiler alert), Philomena’s 3 year old son is taken away from her, against her will. She watches as he is crying and fighting and driving away…

Newborn Photo Shoot

It is hard to believe our little boy is almost 1 month old!  Time really has been flying by.  Shortly after we had returned home from the hospital, a good friend of ours (and amazing photographer – check out her website!) came to our place to do a newborn photo shoot.  Carolyn is so talented…

Joseph Copeland Maroon – The Name

On January 3rd, 2015 at 3:39pm our son, Joseph Copeland Maroon (we will call him by his middle name) made his grand entrance into the world! 7lbs, 11oz and 19 inches of pure cuteness and joy. I know I was getting antsy (to put it mildly) at the end of my pregnancy and having a…

Pregnancy Update

A couple of nights ago, I spent some time going through my old blog posts from my pregnancy with Riley. That was when I first started blogging, and I would do weekly updates on how my pregnancy was progressing. I haven’t done that at all during this pregnancy. I think there are a few reasons…

The Big Rocks

Recently Jordan and I have felt pretty weary. Or maybe we’ve felt that way this whole past year. I’m too tired to think much past today, but I think that’s right. I think we’ve felt this way all year. Perhaps it’s the fact that we kicked the year off with the loss of our second…

To My Sweet Daughter

Riley, You are about to turn 3 in less than two months – when did that happen?! It feels like I put you to bed one day, and you just woke up grown up! I cannot believe the beautiful little girl you are becoming more of every day. You are the most sweet spirited person…

“My Son is Gone” – My Husband’s Processing of our Loss

Recently, my husband wrote about our miscarriage.  I hope that this will be helpful for men who are also processing such a devastating loss. Here is what he wrote (you can visit his new blog here): My Son is Gone (I wrote this February 25th but it has been hard to muster up the energy to revisit…

A Darker ‘Do (for my Daughter)

I have had blonde hair for a really long time.  But I’ll let you in on a little secret: I’m not really a blonde.  I’m a brunette who has always preferred blonde hair, who also just happens to have a sister who is a hairstylist ;).  My dream hair color has always only been a…

Salem

In my other posts about our recent miscarriage, you may have noticed me talking about my “son.” Though it was far too early to have known anything about gender before we lost our child, for a few weeks prior to our loss, Jordan and I had both been certain that this was a boy. When…